1 year and 8 months – that’s how long it’s been since I posted something on this blog. Have I written during this time? Only for work, because I had to.
1 year and 8 months – that’s 613 days give or take a few days (mathematics has never been my strong point). During this period, some very interesting things have happened in my life.
I decided, okay not me alone but all the parties involved, decided to walk away from something that was making us unhappy. This was my first time going away from tradition and expectation and normalcy in most households. We are raised to first go to school, then university (I’ve realised not everyone enjoys this privilege), marriage comes next and after that the babies and you live happily ever after. This is an age old system and one that has worked for many.
However, when these interesting things were happening in my life – I took a step back, I took a step back to look at the bigger picture. We are all a puzzle piece put together to form the bigger picture that is life. And when you step back, you see a disjointed puzzle, nothing appears as it seems. The pieces around you may fit perfectly, but they may disconnect from this bigger picture. Okay I need to stop saying bigger picture.
Anyways, my point being the perfect life that we have planned for us is not so pretty when you really look at it – people stay married because that is what is expected of them, kids allow their parents to dictate their life only to realise they are miserable, children are born to couples whose love faded 3 months into the marriage, adults do monotonous jobs because that is what is expected of them. In short, people existed rather than lived.
You know that deliriously happy look kids have you rarely see it in adults. And when you ask them why they would rather do something because it is what is expected of them rather than following their passion the answers typically are “What to do? I have kids now and I can’t quit my job just like that to do whatever it is I like to do.” “So what if my husband and I have a boring marriage, at least he is doing a good job and I have a nice comfortable life.” and so forth.
People around me were merely existing and not really living. Over a course of a few months, it hit me I’d honestly rather be living a difficult life where I would take public transport to get about than a chauffeur driven car, do chores around the house than have a maid at my beck and call, where at the end of the month I would rather wonder where my salary went than opt for economic stability, where I would save up for 12 months for a Prada bag I’ve been lusting after rather than have it gifted for my birthday (this does not mean I do not want pretty gifts for my birthday :b), where I would be doing a job that I love than sitting at home because I did not need to work, where I plan holidays on a shoestring budget months ahead than opt for a no holds barred luxurious holiday.
I’d take the hard stuff because you know that deliriously happy look kids get, I have that every morning I wake up. Okay, a few moments after I wake up once I have caffeine in my blood stream.
Mind you, breaking away from the status quo comes at a heavy price. Your parents face the brunt of it as they deal with questions on why they have raised such an independent daughter and also the gossip. The mindless gossip, that status quo comes at a heavy price. Your parents face the brunt of it as they deal with questions on why they have raised such an independent daughter and also the gossip. The mindless gossip, that slays your character rather drags it to the streets, douses it in boiling water and then rip your skin from your bones – okay, that is a bit graphic at least in my head it is – that is the worst. But you know what, as hard as it is you learn to lift your head up and take on the world, whatever it is it throws your way.
Moral of this rant: Economic stability and a comfortable lifestyle does not give you true happiness rather it is doing what you love even if it is the most difficult thing you have had to do .. And also because I need one of these reminders once in awhile 🙂